I stayed at my old apartment last week to take care of Roxy while Jane was away on a trip. Sitting on the couch watching TV (still remembering how to change the channels on the confusing remote) and clanging pots and pans around the kitchen (and knowing where to put them all back), I suddenly realized how at home I still feel there. I walked over to my old bed - still there anytime I want to return, so Jane says! - and looked out at the view of the city, and I felt the familiar chills of excitement run up my spine.
I remembered the first time I saw that view - Jane and I had been emailing back and forth for about a week to make plans for me to see her (make that meet her) while I visited New York with Jackie and Ansley. In one of the emails Jane included a picture of a sunset view from her apartment window, and when I opened the message and comprehended the picture as the iconic buildings of midtown Manhattan, a lump swelled in my throat and tears welled in my eyes. Sitting in front of my computer screen in my office in Birmingham, I choked back the emotions the picture stirred - it was my absolute dream!, yet the Birmingham life was my reality. The desire to be in New York burned as deeply as the piercing oranges of the setting sun in the picture, and I knew then and there that I HAD to get to New York.
That same lump of emotion appeared again in my throat today - two years later - as I thought about how that dream to live in New York...and have that view...became a reality. And the lump grew sweeter with thoughts of how Jane opened her home and heart to me so I could experience New York. What a lasting view of friendship that picture will always give me.
I still have that email Jane sent me on February 1, 2007 - see the picture below, and my emotions-tempered-down reply:
"WOW!!! That picture made tears well up in my eyes! That is my New York dream! You are so lucky to live there." ~ Rebecca to Jane, February 2, 2007